Time just gets away

I've officially finished high school December 4th but i haven't been there for a bout a month now and it's truly amazing how time just slips my mind. I couldn't believe it today when I woke up that tomorrow is already thanksgiving! I mean where has the time gone?...Well I mean I was just watching these video's of my family acting a fool right before my father left for the military last year. Crazy stuff, I mean is it me or is time flying? I mean jeez wait for me! Ya know? lol I am sitting here thinking to myself that I am official about to begin my life. I mean my boyfriend said something that really sparked something in my mind he said "time was always ahead of us but now it is finally here" I mean I remember going into highschool thinking, man! I wonder where I will be when I am 18 years old! well I am 18 years old and it's amazing that this is the make or break point of my life. Whether I become a successful woman depends on the decisions I make here on it. Though, I know I am kind of jumping from topics I just felt neccassary for me to mention that I wish we could all have the oppurtunity to make it to 18, to graduate highschool, to go to prom, etc...I was thinking about someone that just past away around last week her name was Ashlee she died of cancer at 14 years old. I feel that so many people even myself lost the pleasure of truly getting to know a amazingly strong person. I always say that though I was in an accident, and almost lost my life it could've been worse. I could've had cancer, I could've been paralyzed and so on and so forth. But it just hurt my heart to know that this young lady well never get the chance to accomplish some of the little things we all take for granted. And I would just like to say I think we all come to a point were we just assume tomorrow is going to come and we just let time get away from us. I feel that especially if you have never been through a traumatic expierence you end up taking life for granted because you have never had an expierence to show you that tomorrow is never promised. Time owe's us nothing. And I remember when I got into my accident I lost so much that day but I am still here unlike the other people I met in the hospitial. The hospitial was the last place they would ever see and they were all just as young as me 12,11,10 years old so young, so fragile, there lives never even got a chance to truly get started. That goes to show you life truly is unfair. I know I am kind of just babbling but my mind is in so many different places right now. I would just like to take these last few sentences and say Rest In Peace Ashlee, I wish I could've truly got to know you. You are so much more of a strong person than I and I give your family my best of luck and I hope your in a better place. With Love. Until my next blog everyone have a great holiday.

A Man Like You

Passion has filled the pit of my heart
I have fallen like an Autumn Leaf
My spine tingles with the sensation of your touch
Happiness has overwhelmed my soul
Lust rushes to the tips of my fingers
Your love crashes into me like tidal waves

What Im trying to say is...
your love is my pride
your love is my happiness
your love is my sole reason of
getting up every morning

The beauty you hold is blinding
like the sun on a hot summer morning
Everyday I see that pure smile, I feel born again
The only true joy in this hectic thing we call life
is to be in your arms...

If tomorrow never comes
then Ill leave with no regrets
because I was given a chance to love a
man like you.

The Rare Women

See I am a simple young lady, full of class ambition and morals!, I see how females carry themselves now a days and its terrible. I mean How do you get mad at a man for calling you a "bitch" when you are running around calling yourself "this bitch" or "that bitch" or "I am the number one bitch" how do you get mad at the man because you have no self-respect? see now I am a good woman, I keep it sexy, mysterious, and classy all the same time. Guys ask me how I am different and these are just a few ways. See I may seem like I got a attitude but no sweetie it's just I am being straight forward from the get go. I have a future plans I know what I want and I have no time for games. See females running around posting pics with no clothes on and wondering why all they get is dudes asking them about sex! see I could careless at whether your a freak or not fella's really see because I wanna know who you are for who are you no bullshit! see the thing is I am a genuine women, I don't put pictures up of me half naked up cause I mean what is the point of us even talking? I mean you have seen everything I got to offer there's no challenge, there is no mystery, there is no chase! see and women forget that. It's so much sexier to leave it up to the mans imagination rather than to just put your shit all out there trying to pull dude's. See if you can't pull a dude without showing your tits or having make-up caked up your a fake! your not a real women. So I mean I know this is a lot to say so Im going to end it here. But if you ever want to know why i am different read this right here. I am just a individual. Peace people!

My Dearest Friend Cobi!
Sharing a few things
Thank's hun I love'd it and Truly appreciate it

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he's really doing things you guys
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Its been a while Mr. Crocadile!

Anyway's it's been a while since, I wrote in this little blog of mine. I just have been consumed with somethings. I have been in a terrible amount of pain. I have been very irritable and having little patience for anyone's stupidity. I don't know what exactly to say. Oh! I am going to the doc's tomorrow to tell him how terrible I have been feeling. But, see it's been 5 years since my accident and I can almost use my phsycic abilities to know what he's going to tell me. Honestly, it's not that I am being negative cause believe me I know sometimes even though a situation is bad I know how you handle it, and how your attitude towards it well either make it harder or make it a tad bit easier. So thats not my issue but my biggest thing is I am becoming Nuetrul like I just choose not to think about it anymore... I choose not to stress over this shit I cannot change. I just don't know at this point in time. I dont know how to handle it because all this pain, it's like it really is tiring. It makes it hard to stay optimistic but I try to keep a good grip on it and keep my shit in check. Cause I know there are people out there that have it way worse than myself. lol! I just realized you all are probably wondering what in the hell is she talking about? what's wrong with her?... Well I'll save that one for tomorrow's post.(dramatic music plays) Dun dun dunnnn. lol Later