Unsolvable Mystery

The mystery lurks in the pit of my soul
locked away
the key never to be seen again
The mystery lurks in my deep brown eyes
locked away
the key never to be seen again
The mystery lurks in the beat of my heart
locked away
the key never to be seen again
The mystery lurks behind the deceitful smile
locked away
the key never to be seen again
The mystery lurks between the lines
locked away
the key never to be seen again
The mystery lurks within I
locked away
where it will stay
Never to be seen again.

Time just gets away

I've officially finished high school December 4th but i haven't been there for a bout a month now and it's truly amazing how time just slips my mind. I couldn't believe it today when I woke up that tomorrow is already thanksgiving! I mean where has the time gone?...Well I mean I was just watching these video's of my family acting a fool right before my father left for the military last year. Crazy stuff, I mean is it me or is time flying? I mean jeez wait for me! Ya know? lol I am sitting here thinking to myself that I am official about to begin my life. I mean my boyfriend said something that really sparked something in my mind he said "time was always ahead of us but now it is finally here" I mean I remember going into highschool thinking, man! I wonder where I will be when I am 18 years old! well I am 18 years old and it's amazing that this is the make or break point of my life. Whether I become a successful woman depends on the decisions I make here on it. Though, I know I am kind of jumping from topics I just felt neccassary for me to mention that I wish we could all have the oppurtunity to make it to 18, to graduate highschool, to go to prom, etc...I was thinking about someone that just past away around last week her name was Ashlee she died of cancer at 14 years old. I feel that so many people even myself lost the pleasure of truly getting to know a amazingly strong person. I always say that though I was in an accident, and almost lost my life it could've been worse. I could've had cancer, I could've been paralyzed and so on and so forth. But it just hurt my heart to know that this young lady well never get the chance to accomplish some of the little things we all take for granted. And I would just like to say I think we all come to a point were we just assume tomorrow is going to come and we just let time get away from us. I feel that especially if you have never been through a traumatic expierence you end up taking life for granted because you have never had an expierence to show you that tomorrow is never promised. Time owe's us nothing. And I remember when I got into my accident I lost so much that day but I am still here unlike the other people I met in the hospitial. The hospitial was the last place they would ever see and they were all just as young as me 12,11,10 years old so young, so fragile, there lives never even got a chance to truly get started. That goes to show you life truly is unfair. I know I am kind of just babbling but my mind is in so many different places right now. I would just like to take these last few sentences and say Rest In Peace Ashlee, I wish I could've truly got to know you. You are so much more of a strong person than I and I give your family my best of luck and I hope your in a better place. With Love. Until my next blog everyone have a great holiday.

A Man Like You

Passion has filled the pit of my heart
I have fallen like an Autumn Leaf
My spine tingles with the sensation of your touch
Happiness has overwhelmed my soul
Lust rushes to the tips of my fingers
Your love crashes into me like tidal waves

What Im trying to say is...
your love is my pride
your love is my happiness
your love is my sole reason of
getting up every morning

The beauty you hold is blinding
like the sun on a hot summer morning
Everyday I see that pure smile, I feel born again
The only true joy in this hectic thing we call life
is to be in your arms...

If tomorrow never comes
then Ill leave with no regrets
because I was given a chance to love a
man like you.

The Rare Women

See I am a simple young lady, full of class ambition and morals!, I see how females carry themselves now a days and its terrible. I mean How do you get mad at a man for calling you a "bitch" when you are running around calling yourself "this bitch" or "that bitch" or "I am the number one bitch" how do you get mad at the man because you have no self-respect? see now I am a good woman, I keep it sexy, mysterious, and classy all the same time. Guys ask me how I am different and these are just a few ways. See I may seem like I got a attitude but no sweetie it's just I am being straight forward from the get go. I have a future plans I know what I want and I have no time for games. See females running around posting pics with no clothes on and wondering why all they get is dudes asking them about sex! see I could careless at whether your a freak or not fella's really see because I wanna know who you are for who are you no bullshit! see the thing is I am a genuine women, I don't put pictures up of me half naked up cause I mean what is the point of us even talking? I mean you have seen everything I got to offer there's no challenge, there is no mystery, there is no chase! see and women forget that. It's so much sexier to leave it up to the mans imagination rather than to just put your shit all out there trying to pull dude's. See if you can't pull a dude without showing your tits or having make-up caked up your a fake! your not a real women. So I mean I know this is a lot to say so Im going to end it here. But if you ever want to know why i am different read this right here. I am just a individual. Peace people!

My Dearest Friend Cobi!
Sharing a few things
Thank's hun I love'd it and Truly appreciate it

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Its been a while Mr. Crocadile!

Anyway's it's been a while since, I wrote in this little blog of mine. I just have been consumed with somethings. I have been in a terrible amount of pain. I have been very irritable and having little patience for anyone's stupidity. I don't know what exactly to say. Oh! I am going to the doc's tomorrow to tell him how terrible I have been feeling. But, see it's been 5 years since my accident and I can almost use my phsycic abilities to know what he's going to tell me. Honestly, it's not that I am being negative cause believe me I know sometimes even though a situation is bad I know how you handle it, and how your attitude towards it well either make it harder or make it a tad bit easier. So thats not my issue but my biggest thing is I am becoming Nuetrul like I just choose not to think about it anymore... I choose not to stress over this shit I cannot change. I just don't know at this point in time. I dont know how to handle it because all this pain, it's like it really is tiring. It makes it hard to stay optimistic but I try to keep a good grip on it and keep my shit in check. Cause I know there are people out there that have it way worse than myself. lol! I just realized you all are probably wondering what in the hell is she talking about? what's wrong with her?... Well I'll save that one for tomorrow's post.(dramatic music plays) Dun dun dunnnn. lol Later

A Beautiful Proccess

I figured instead of posting some poetry, I'd just do a little chatting for the moment. Well today was a decent day started off with school and hanging with my boyfriend. Though something was different today, we worked on a little bit of me driving it was really nice in fact I had a lot of fun. See! though somethings stood out to me today, something odd at that. We made love today just as beautiful and amazing as always but what stood out to me today was the fact not only was it very emotional for me for some strange reason but afterward oddly enough I was having these crazy self-esteem issues. I don't know why, that's the crazy thing. He and I after making love sat in silence just enjoying each others presence and it was touching like wise though. But, afterward we went to make another attempt at it and I just had this terrible feeling I couldn't shake it. But I mean going on 11:00pm I began to feel a tad bit better so we shall see how things go I suppose. Its truly funny though how he and I just go together so well though, though I have realized some things about his past... I mean other than that he truly makes me smile. I love to look in his eye's and look at that smile of his it's mind bottling it really is I love him I truly do. 3 years has gone by and though we have hit some major bumps we managed to pull through, truly I don't know how we did it. When I was sure that we were through we always managed to pull through and it's been a heartbreaking process but I plan us to go on for years but I don't want to sound like one of those young babbling females that talk about "how deeply in love they are after 2 days of being together" so we will leave it at that. Well I just thought for a moment I would let out a few things about today and what I have thought about. Later Day's peeps!

Broken Angel

Broken Angel
By: Taylor Darden

It seems as if I've fallen
Fallen from the sky
They say I used to soar an
turn the sky into lust,love,&happiness
But that was
once upon a time.
Is this the name of the game...
thinking about a time
were my wings took me
to a place were the average eye could not see
a place that no one knew
but only dreamed of.

I used to lye on a cloud
sleep on a star
skate on the moon
&& on the way to come find you
I seemed to of lost the way
lost in the darkness I found myself falling.
My deepest fears came true.
an thou wings had broken.
the nightmares anchored me down
And from there I watched
the dreams crash and burned.

Now here I stand
on this very gray day
while the rain is pouring my tears
that I shed.
As I think to myself
I love it when it rains cause no one sees
this broken angels cry...

Moments In Time

Day's to come
Hours to embrace
Minute's to Chase
Seconds to race..
Here we are
At this very moment
I see nothing but you.
At this very moment
I feel nothing but your
warm embrace...
Here we are
At this very minute
heart's beating to every second
Kiss me before the moment is gone....

Don't look up
Don't look down
Close your eyes
Take my hand
Hold it tight.

Let's take a flight
at this very moment
this very day
this very second.

Hurry an kiss me
an never forget...
don't look back
don't look ahead

capture the very moment
where you hold me in your arms..

Moment's have come
Moment's have left
Day's turned to hours
Minutes turned to seconds.
Life's a hour glass
An the sand is almost up.

Time is limited
but we are forever
an when our hour glass
is up.
we well fly away together.
an capture the moment
we defined forever...

My Credo

My Credo
By : Taylor Darden

I believe in

Laughter healing the deepest of wounds,

Finding strength against the odds,

and falling deeply in love with another

But to not make the best out of a situation is just a slow torture to the mind,
body and soul.

I believe in things happening for a reason,

I believe in the coming an going of people,

I believe in second chances because we all learn from are mistakes
an try to make a difference.

I believe in the purity of children

An the stubborness of a overprotective father,

And making my mistakes for my own reference an expierence

And the longing to better my life

The warmth in my mothers embrace,

I believe in following my gut feeling.

An I believe there's alway's sun to come after the rain.

Brand New Woman

Brand New Woman
By: Taylor Darden
Written: 4-2-2009

Classy, Intelligent, Confident
Determined to become everything I ever wanted to be
Promises were made, they were sealed with a kiss

I fell 10 times over again...
Whispers told me what to expect but the stubbornness in the
pit of my soul wasn't ready to let go, to give up!

As if the future was predicted
Whispers became reality
&& the seal was broke along with the hope that filled
fragile heart...

Lost for days
Searching for something similar, for something familiar
soon realizing familiar was gone.
realizing today was a new day of a new life...

Now I stand tall
The woman that well never again fall
Proud to be all that I am
never regretting all that I did...

Finally everything I wanna be
more stubborn than ever
more passionate than ever
I once was lost but here I am
& as I stand I'm a brand new woman

Complex
Written: Sept/19/2009
Listening to: Linkin Park- Leave out all the rest.
By: Taylor a. Darden (me)

More than what you see
Something that needs thought
What takes more then 5 minutes
Meaning more then simple
Higher than High
Makes adrenaline burst in your veins
Anticipation dwindles
Hormones Raging
Emotional...
Occupations & Hobbies Crumble
Number one Priority
Adds up to unlimited
Complex to even the most complicated of minds
This what you get when you think of me

A true individual, originiator, motivator and leader

Gray Day, Lone Tree

Gray Day, Lone Tree.
By: Taylor.Darden
Written: June-17-07

It seems as if, that this very moment
My emotions are being mimicked
Through a lone tree and the very skies around it...
Full of disappointment and false hope

Lushes Leaves
One more beautiful than the next
Each leaf giving this tree, its own identity
as it's Beauty blows through the win
the sky shows it's deepest emotion.

A beautiful tree
Standing alone
With no one to run to , and no where to hide
this gray day is it's everyday
Whether the bird sings or the sun shines
Wishing we could see beyond the beauty
and see the pain, the anguish, the sadness
Hoping someone will recognize it's very existence

I find myself looking as if it's me
Feeling compassion, and relief that it isn't just me..
I find myself At home with this gray day and this lone tree.