A Beautiful Proccess

I figured instead of posting some poetry, I'd just do a little chatting for the moment. Well today was a decent day started off with school and hanging with my boyfriend. Though something was different today, we worked on a little bit of me driving it was really nice in fact I had a lot of fun. See! though somethings stood out to me today, something odd at that. We made love today just as beautiful and amazing as always but what stood out to me today was the fact not only was it very emotional for me for some strange reason but afterward oddly enough I was having these crazy self-esteem issues. I don't know why, that's the crazy thing. He and I after making love sat in silence just enjoying each others presence and it was touching like wise though. But, afterward we went to make another attempt at it and I just had this terrible feeling I couldn't shake it. But I mean going on 11:00pm I began to feel a tad bit better so we shall see how things go I suppose. Its truly funny though how he and I just go together so well though, though I have realized some things about his past... I mean other than that he truly makes me smile. I love to look in his eye's and look at that smile of his it's mind bottling it really is I love him I truly do. 3 years has gone by and though we have hit some major bumps we managed to pull through, truly I don't know how we did it. When I was sure that we were through we always managed to pull through and it's been a heartbreaking process but I plan us to go on for years but I don't want to sound like one of those young babbling females that talk about "how deeply in love they are after 2 days of being together" so we will leave it at that. Well I just thought for a moment I would let out a few things about today and what I have thought about. Later Day's peeps!